Ok, so that isn't exactly how it came to the point of Michael and I getting married. In fact the proposal came three times over the last year and a half and I always said no. I didn't say no because I didn't love him I said no because I was a selfish person who wanted a big gigantic diamond on my finger.
Let me explain...I will wear clothes from wal-mart and target and not think twice about my jeans costing $20 instead of $120. I don't have to buy name brand groceries and I don't need name brand anything really. The nicest thing I owned until my Toyota was my Aggie Ring. Not kidding! BUT, the one thing that I have always been materialistic about is the engagement ring that I would one day wear. I promised myself that I would not get married until I had the ring that I wanted.
Getting pregnant changed that. It didn't change my thinking in that I had to get married because I was pregnant it changed my thinking in that my priorities had to be realigned and I needed to realize what was important and a big fat diamond was not important.
Remember that party I talked about for my grandfather? We were in San Antonio and after talking to mom and Sarah on our girls trip to San Antonio we started talking about marriage and why I have never said yes to Michael and it occurred to me that I was completely stupid and that there was a man that loved me unconditionally and I refused to commit myself to him because I wanted a ring that I know we would never be able to afford? Well it turns out I got both. I married my best friend and I got the huge diamond that I wanted.
So I called him and asked..."hey seriously, you want to get married next Friday?" He said yes of course with some hesitation about why I changed my mind so quickly. See...I didn't want to get married after finding out I was pregnant because I didn't want people to think that I the only reason that I was getting married was because I was pregnant. That is what I told my Tia and that is what I told my cousin. I had several conversations with people about not wanting to get married because of the baby. But then being surrounded by my family and not being with Michael at the family event made me want to marry him so much more.
Friday we say yes, Saturday we choose a Dress...
We walked into Davids Bridal looking for a dress...I don't even look because the bridal consultant is asking me 1000 questions that really do not pertain to me or my situation but I sit there and answer them. Taylor has cut her toe, Carly is chilling out in her carseat and Sarah has chosen 2 dresses. All of this in 5 minutes. They whisk me away to a dressing room, put my name inside of a heart on the door and now I am a bride. All a bit cheesy if you ask me. I try on the first dress. Fits perfectly I love it and am ready to walk out the door with it. Sarah of course wanted to see the second dress so I put it on and it doesn't fit and is hideous.
Thought for the moment...if this wasn't supposed to happen this way I wouldn't have found a dress.
My favorite moment of the week, as much as I didn't want to prance around in my dress was showing my grandpa me in my wedding dress. Grandpa wasn't doing to well and I knew that he would not be able to make it to the wedding so being able to wear my wedding dress in front of him was almost as good as him being at my wedding. There are 3 things that I wanted to accomplish before my grandfather is no longer with us and I have now accomplished 2 of them and as soon as Madison arrives the third will be complete. He attended my college graduation, I got married (he saw me in my dress) and I want him to see his great-grandbaby. My heart will runneth over when I can succeed with the third.
The wedding I was told was classic and graceful. The only two people I have to thank for it is my awesome sister and my amazing mother. Without their help that week the wedding would have been a disaster.
Wedding Tips 101
If your on a budget...
1. Buy your flowers from Sam's and watch a video on youtube to make your bouquets.
2. Make your own grooms cake...it was made with love and it was awesome!
3. The cakes from HEB really aren't all that bad.
4. Hire Charly Stagg Photography as your photographer...I didn't and learned my lesson the hard way.
5. Don't wear Tuxes....I had an evening wedding and my men looked just as classy in a tie.
6. Use your resources...
7. Hobby Lobby will take anything back...seriously...anything ;) Wink Wink!
8. Charles and Sues will do your updos for $25 bucks and I think my hair looked amazing.
The day of the wedding came and went in a blur...not kidding. I as well as everyone else were running around with our heads cut off. Its 7pm and its time to start. I walk in escorted by the best step-father a girl could have to Charlotte Church singing The Prayer. I was blessed to have my 4 best friends from Tyler come and watch me get married and even more blessed by the friends and family, some I havent seen in years be at my wedding with such short notice. I am a very lucky girl and writing about my wedding day reminds me of this.
I never cried during the wedding and in fact my main goal was to keep Michael smiling so he wouldn't cry as well. He hates that people would think that he would cry. The look on his face when I was walking down the aisle is one that is burned on my heart forever. If I ever doubt his love for me or his family all I will ever have to do is remember this very moment and I should forever be at peace.
Marriage is a good thing. This might be a skewed view and might not come across how I want it to but I like being needed by someone other than myself. I like knowing that I have a job (wife) for the rest of my life taking care of this other person. I love knowing that I am loved enough to know that he would want to spend the rest of his life with me.
So no, I didn't get married because I was pregnant. I got married because I wanted to. I got married because I found the one man that loves me the way that I was meant to be loved and that God wanted me to be loved. I got married because I love this man in a way that is indescribable in words....something that only he and I comprehend.
And that ladies and gents is how Michael and I got hitched one hot day in July and how we started the new chapter of our chaging world!
Stay tuned for the next installment of our family of 3...A fast review of the last 3 months leading up to the first day of required bed rest!
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